02-01-2015, 03:28 AM
So, 2015, figured I'd start things off with an update / Re-Intro. :-)
I'm a "lifelong" T* of some sort, I believe Transgender, who at 39 is essentially fed up with multiple aspects of my life.
I'm tired of running everything through a filter (even though it's mostly unconscious now). I don't want to be concerned with ensuring others perceive me as "male" or "to tough a target to bother with."
Now, I've used herbal treatments and Rx meds in the past, I like the Prescription-strength stuff better (herbals worked when I was a teen... Slightly, slowly, etc.)
Now, I've been off ALL meds for some time, and I'd get serious "flack" at home - but I know if I pursue this, I'll lose the relationship.
But I need to schedule a therapist appointment, I've got too much on my plate to handle it all myself, without oversight and guidance for prioritizing and managing this.
So that's my first real goal, in 2015.
Second goal, lost 52 pounds of fat by 2016. At only one pound per week, should be easy. I know how, I need to manage my diet to make it happen - and then manage ME to keep it off.
Third goal, see if I can avoid transition; or, if impossible, get the important core elements, like electrolysis, done.
I'm done living my life for others, living up to others' goals and objectives for their "good son" or "soul mate" or whatever.
How can they have my best interests at heart - a constant refrain - if they don't even want to know or accept who and what I am?
Anyway: Starting point:
Genetic Male, MTF, early onset (IE, crossdressing since about 7; envying the girls since about 8; wishing I could wake up as a girl since 8 or nine, maybe younger.)
Hormones on and off using herbals as a teen, and then inHouse occasionally over the last 20 years or so. Up to 8 mg/day.
Key measures:
Neck: 15.5"
Above breasts: 46"
Nipple line: 49"
Underbreast: 44"
Waist: 40" (Male waist measure)
Hips: 46"
thighs: 24"
Calf: 16.5"
Weight: 233.0
Body Fat %: 37.5%
Height: 5' 9"
Since I enjoy strength training, I need to add more activities for fat burning. HIIT and more physical activity every day should make it work - but I need to start monitoring my caloric intake. High Protein, medium Fat, VLC type diet. And make sure I target the correct muscles for strength training: Gluteals, esp. Gluteus Medius, and legs, but try to NOT build muscle in the calves. :-)
Also add Yoga and LOTS of stretching. Need to lengthen the muscles, especially the Quads - they're already an issue, women tend to be quad dominant - but not with MY sort of mass. The objective is to be feminine, and not a feminine Orc. ;-)
Also figured I'd upload basic photos, so I can keep a starting record. And BTW, YES, I wear a (sports) bra every day - for (two) obvious reasons! :-)
But I warn you, is NOT pretty. The numbers sound better than I look....
And BTW, haven't sent the woman around and may not now.
I'm a "lifelong" T* of some sort, I believe Transgender, who at 39 is essentially fed up with multiple aspects of my life.
I'm tired of running everything through a filter (even though it's mostly unconscious now). I don't want to be concerned with ensuring others perceive me as "male" or "to tough a target to bother with."
Now, I've used herbal treatments and Rx meds in the past, I like the Prescription-strength stuff better (herbals worked when I was a teen... Slightly, slowly, etc.)
Now, I've been off ALL meds for some time, and I'd get serious "flack" at home - but I know if I pursue this, I'll lose the relationship.
But I need to schedule a therapist appointment, I've got too much on my plate to handle it all myself, without oversight and guidance for prioritizing and managing this.
So that's my first real goal, in 2015.
Second goal, lost 52 pounds of fat by 2016. At only one pound per week, should be easy. I know how, I need to manage my diet to make it happen - and then manage ME to keep it off.
Third goal, see if I can avoid transition; or, if impossible, get the important core elements, like electrolysis, done.
I'm done living my life for others, living up to others' goals and objectives for their "good son" or "soul mate" or whatever.
How can they have my best interests at heart - a constant refrain - if they don't even want to know or accept who and what I am?
Anyway: Starting point:
Genetic Male, MTF, early onset (IE, crossdressing since about 7; envying the girls since about 8; wishing I could wake up as a girl since 8 or nine, maybe younger.)
Hormones on and off using herbals as a teen, and then inHouse occasionally over the last 20 years or so. Up to 8 mg/day.
Key measures:
Neck: 15.5"
Above breasts: 46"
Nipple line: 49"
Underbreast: 44"
Waist: 40" (Male waist measure)
Hips: 46"
thighs: 24"
Calf: 16.5"
Weight: 233.0
Body Fat %: 37.5%
Height: 5' 9"
Since I enjoy strength training, I need to add more activities for fat burning. HIIT and more physical activity every day should make it work - but I need to start monitoring my caloric intake. High Protein, medium Fat, VLC type diet. And make sure I target the correct muscles for strength training: Gluteals, esp. Gluteus Medius, and legs, but try to NOT build muscle in the calves. :-)
Also add Yoga and LOTS of stretching. Need to lengthen the muscles, especially the Quads - they're already an issue, women tend to be quad dominant - but not with MY sort of mass. The objective is to be feminine, and not a feminine Orc. ;-)
Also figured I'd upload basic photos, so I can keep a starting record. And BTW, YES, I wear a (sports) bra every day - for (two) obvious reasons! :-)
But I warn you, is NOT pretty. The numbers sound better than I look....
And BTW, haven't sent the woman around and may not now.