[Marina Kits]

I started here 2 years ago with what I now call the "great compromise". I was trying to be as feminine as I could (growing breasts & mental effect) but came to the long resisted conclusion that I couldn't pull that off and transition might be the only way for me to find peace and happiness. Like b.rose, I find myself thinking about SIMILAR things (breast enlargement) but my methods are now very different and my focus is much, much bigger than just breasts. Honestly, breasts are only a very small part of it now. For me at least, this forum has been a sounding board to air out my thoughts and feelings but I fear I'm getting so far from the focus of this forum, that very few of you are interested in hearing about my struggles, mental gymnastics and emotional moments. If your reason for being here is only to grow breasts, why would you want to hear me talk about such things as how fragile my identity is right now as I say goodbye to the facade I created over 44 years while trying to embrace my true identity as female? It's all I've been thinking and crying about for days now. Pursuing transition is a very different endeavor than NBE even though we may have common beginnings. For those who are here for the main purpose of growing breasts, this forum is first and foremost for you! I feel like I'M the one crashing YOUR party.