[Misty0732]

I've haven't been on the board much over the past few weeks, so I am coming late to this discussion.

In my case I absolutely know that transition will never be an option, no matter how much I grow to want it. I love my wife more than I love myself, and I would suffer the fires of hell itself before I would bring pain down on her. She knows about my GD and fears its effects. I let her know over and over that she has nothing to fear. That is difficult for me but that is just the way it is.

I fully acknowledge that there are other situations and other couples who will handle this differently. I have long since resigned myself to my reality, however, and I don't torture myself with any misplaced hope that it will change.

I'm currently off PM and my GD is as strong now as it ever was (maybe even stronger). I will continue to cope, however, and stay within the boundaries my wife can tolerate.

Misty