[Sofia Bunny]

I've gone cold turkey from pm for about a solid two months now. Perhaps the most noteworthy change during this period is the envy/admiration I sometimes experience when looking at some females, not the women in fashion magazines, but females you would see on an everyday basis. It's also becoming more abundantly clear as to why my gender identity lies in the realm of obscurity or andrygnony. As much as I have a soft spot for things that would be considered feminine, I also have a rather detached, realist and sometimes harsh perspective on life.

I hope I'm making some sense here.

So perhaps I'm misunderstanding but it almost sounds like there is some part of you that would like to be a woman if maybe you were more passable. Now of course I could have missed my mark by a long shot.

Could it also be in some part of our human nature that envies what we do not have? You know like that saying the grass always seems greener on the other side?

Well that's my understanding of your findings.