[katieinhiding]

Am I happy about this? Well, yes, in general. Feminization has been my objective, after all. But, there is a certain sense of loss, too, that's sometimes hard to brush off. I still have a male gender identity which has had to make room for my inner woman. Sometimes begrudgingly.

Hi Clara -- sorry to dig up an old thread, but I have the same concerns now as you did when you wrote this. I just started (literally a few days ago) on estradiol and it took me a long time to get here because there are some things hard to give up -- physical strength is one of those.

I'm curious. How are you feeling about it now?