27-05-2015, 11:37 PM
I think the only thing I can add is that it could be that you have in fact become less desirable to her. You said that you were an Alpha male. Well, although I can't relate to it, some women actually _do_ like men to be Alpha males. The phytoestrogens will definitely affect the way you smell - and pheremones do play an important part in male/female attraction.
There is no doubt that a "standard" woman will find the concept of a man wanting to feminise as repulsive as a "standard" man would find the idea of a beautiful woman wanting to masculinise.
Would you be really, really happy if the solution to your problems was for her to take testosterone, no longer be "hot", but to lose half of her hair, grow a beard, have her voice break, get a mastectomy, and have an artificial penis constructed? (Which, by the way, she would like to try out on you).
It's that last example which I use on a personal basis to sustain me when I get agonise about the unfairness of life.
Your big problem, however, is the gender dysphoria. I have found that it is possible for me to find a dosage of PM that suppresses my desire to cross-dress or otherwise to try to present as female. The disadvantage is that it also suppresses the libido and erections. For men young enough to want penetrative sex on a regular basis, this means regular sessions of cold turkey - going a week or so without the PM, but knowing that later on the depression will go.
The other disadvantage is that the dose is large enough to cause breast growth.
You might want to consider making a bargain with your wife to the extent that you would find the dosage that got rid of the dysphoria, but it would cause gynecomastia - which many men get nowadays anyway thanks to pollution, unethical food production and drug abuse - but in return you would stop asking for permission to otherwise feminise (which you would not need to do anyway if you get the dose right). There is always the option of breast reduction - a very common operation for men.
That's the arrangement that I have with my wife and it works well.
B.
There is no doubt that a "standard" woman will find the concept of a man wanting to feminise as repulsive as a "standard" man would find the idea of a beautiful woman wanting to masculinise.
Would you be really, really happy if the solution to your problems was for her to take testosterone, no longer be "hot", but to lose half of her hair, grow a beard, have her voice break, get a mastectomy, and have an artificial penis constructed? (Which, by the way, she would like to try out on you).
It's that last example which I use on a personal basis to sustain me when I get agonise about the unfairness of life.
Your big problem, however, is the gender dysphoria. I have found that it is possible for me to find a dosage of PM that suppresses my desire to cross-dress or otherwise to try to present as female. The disadvantage is that it also suppresses the libido and erections. For men young enough to want penetrative sex on a regular basis, this means regular sessions of cold turkey - going a week or so without the PM, but knowing that later on the depression will go.
The other disadvantage is that the dose is large enough to cause breast growth.
You might want to consider making a bargain with your wife to the extent that you would find the dosage that got rid of the dysphoria, but it would cause gynecomastia - which many men get nowadays anyway thanks to pollution, unethical food production and drug abuse - but in return you would stop asking for permission to otherwise feminise (which you would not need to do anyway if you get the dose right). There is always the option of breast reduction - a very common operation for men.
That's the arrangement that I have with my wife and it works well.
B.