[Huggy]

Hi Dianna

Even a quick look at your posing history shows you have been around herbals for much longer than me so won't even try to make any suggestions. But I can at least acknowledge that you are not alone with this battle. I consider myself very lucky that my history is far less traumatic than most, but the mental struggle is certainly familiar enough for me to recognise. I would also say that there will be many here that are going/have gone though what you are going though now. A shared pain doesn't necessarily make it hurt less, but perhaps just a little easier to endure?

I understand how you feel about seeing a therapist. A good one can do marvellous things, but they are not a universal cure. And you have to be in the right place to be able to "hear" them too. However, it does seem as though the one thing you do need at the moment is a listening ear? Is there just one person who you could talk to? Perhaps even the Samaritans? They are not just a suicide watch, they are there to hold out a hand to anyone hurting.

Either way, we may live on a large planet and be thinly spread, but the community I have found here seems genuine and caring. You are not alone.

Huggy.