21-07-2015, 09:53 PM
hi, Huggy.
To explain fully would be massively OT and somewhat political.
Suffice to say, I don't trust doctors where I am, even though it's a protected situation.
Flip of a switch can change that, and we can be reclassified in with pedophiles real easy...
I'm thinking I'll do out-of-pocket with no ID at Fenway (Boston). Someone looking to datamine will put it all together, but they'd be able to do that anyway.
Mind, I'm not even presuming the therapist would intend anything - there are just too many issues these days being an honest citizen.
But I think it's time to do two things, in whatever order:
1 - Remove the woman from my life;
2 - get some counseling and hopefully under informed consent, at least low-dose HRT.
Since the money lasts less than the month, and I KNOW I'm not spending it, I wonder where it goes... She's not a clothes horse, not redecorating, not buying jewelry, etc - but it's going somewhere, and when I ask for an accounting, I don't seem to get a straight answer. And she ALWAYS has cash... And our expenses always closely follow the income, even now that we don't have $3K in vet bills per month.
You don't need to be a rocket scientist here to smell SOMETHING funny.
#2, if I work with HRT and get my weight down, and start electrolysis, it'll be tight financially, but I'm working and got a sort-of promotion here (lower salary, but FTE instead of contract). So I'm a corporate officer... Which I can put on the resume for future use. :-)
Since #1 includes getting rid of a MAJOR issue that's been going on for some time (a decade). THE roadblock. I mean, I've got all the problems of being single, and all the problems of being married... That's a hell of an accomplishment! And I've had to learn to be very Alpha and Dominant, and that cognitive dissonance is MURDER. Yet no time on the motorcycle, no time to work out (I'm abandoning her... She watches TV whether I'm there or not. Waitaminnit...)
Not getting into it again, it's WAY too easy to get into those negatives. :-)
But I'll probably hit up PM tonight. Used the LAST of the Cyproterone Acetate last night (androcur)... Progesterone cream not so good for me. (Maca, too.) And no Dutasteride, either... Keep pushing it off until I can afford it... Hmm....
Anyway, need to run for the train. Probably going to miss it... :-P
To explain fully would be massively OT and somewhat political.
Suffice to say, I don't trust doctors where I am, even though it's a protected situation.
Flip of a switch can change that, and we can be reclassified in with pedophiles real easy...
I'm thinking I'll do out-of-pocket with no ID at Fenway (Boston). Someone looking to datamine will put it all together, but they'd be able to do that anyway.
Mind, I'm not even presuming the therapist would intend anything - there are just too many issues these days being an honest citizen.
But I think it's time to do two things, in whatever order:
1 - Remove the woman from my life;
2 - get some counseling and hopefully under informed consent, at least low-dose HRT.
Since the money lasts less than the month, and I KNOW I'm not spending it, I wonder where it goes... She's not a clothes horse, not redecorating, not buying jewelry, etc - but it's going somewhere, and when I ask for an accounting, I don't seem to get a straight answer. And she ALWAYS has cash... And our expenses always closely follow the income, even now that we don't have $3K in vet bills per month.
You don't need to be a rocket scientist here to smell SOMETHING funny.
#2, if I work with HRT and get my weight down, and start electrolysis, it'll be tight financially, but I'm working and got a sort-of promotion here (lower salary, but FTE instead of contract). So I'm a corporate officer... Which I can put on the resume for future use. :-)
Since #1 includes getting rid of a MAJOR issue that's been going on for some time (a decade). THE roadblock. I mean, I've got all the problems of being single, and all the problems of being married... That's a hell of an accomplishment! And I've had to learn to be very Alpha and Dominant, and that cognitive dissonance is MURDER. Yet no time on the motorcycle, no time to work out (I'm abandoning her... She watches TV whether I'm there or not. Waitaminnit...)
Not getting into it again, it's WAY too easy to get into those negatives. :-)
But I'll probably hit up PM tonight. Used the LAST of the Cyproterone Acetate last night (androcur)... Progesterone cream not so good for me. (Maca, too.) And no Dutasteride, either... Keep pushing it off until I can afford it... Hmm....
Anyway, need to run for the train. Probably going to miss it... :-P