[EvaMarie]

Eva,

Smile, don't smile, it doesn't matter. You look calm, cool and collected for someone who has a pile of other people's mail sitting next to you, lmao. Joking aside, I think you look great, I see a slim (fit) feminine shape with boobs that are filling out nicely.

Soooo, as you never seem to sweat the small stuff in life, I must say great job.

Thanks Lotus You know it amazes me sometimes but YES I actually am very calm cool and collected with all that mail and as a woman and becoming "automatic" as in I just do it now with little effort or thought whether its an address on a letter or package I can visualize the mail box for when sorting it or just dealing with people as a woman dating or at work or just socially Really sometimes Im like "did I really just do all that shit so well without even trying or thinking about it all???" I mean just like anything else there is a learning curve, from MtF transition to sorting and delivering 1700-2500 pieces of mail to 700 boxes on a 55 mile route and getting every piece to the right box There was a time I was totally overwhelmed by the job as well as the idea of of living 24/7/365 as a woman... Different but the same and actually they do go together as Im doing both at the same time... From dealing with my bosses male and female to the large businesses like factories, car dealers and even an ammo plant I gotta go into every time out with certified mail that needs a signature or dropping off and picking up a lot of packages.... I'll be totally wrapped up in the job (not even thinking of gender shit at all) when someone will make my day with a "She" "Miss", or "Ma'am" Not one person has questioned my gender at the post office or really anywhere else for a LONG time now here in western SD yet I unfortunately still do on occasion

I still have BAD days where I just feel like a total freak and have terrible dysphoria I wonder if people are just being "polite" and feel like no amount of HRT or surgery could ever erase 44 years of T and living actually quite successfully as a "man"... Of course aside from wanting a TOTALLY feminized body I still like "male" things as much as ever... Still know EXACTLY how an "automatic tranny" works, could remove and rebuild one and I have and I can appreciate every shift!!! LOL So of course there is no "going back" for me aside from accepting and integrating my old "male" strengths with my new life...