27-09-2015, 05:47 AM
Wow, that's quite a list you got there Julie!
Maybe it's just me, but I don't feel a need to micromanage my NBE, pm levels or gender identity. I see the different components of myself (gendered and non-gendered) as being largely self-regulating, thereby eliminating a need for constant oversight. Fiscal responsibility doesn't go out the window when I'm shopping for women's clothes. Feeling feminine or wanting to do feminine things doesn't make me oblivious to the fact that I have a mostly masculine body and voice. If my crossdressing/NBE desires got free reign tomorrow, I think the most that would happen is making some tweaks to my wardrobe and perhaps incorporate minor amounts of cosmetics to my appearance. It's not like I would suddenly get into gender therapy, get started on HRT, move to a different city and start living full-time as a woman.
In other words, I see my pursuit of crossdressing and NBE as one of many aspects of myself, versus being alien components with their own agendas that are incompatible with my own values. If there's one thing I'm worried about myself is the possibility of relapsing into depression, not where crossdressing or NBE may take me.
Maybe it's just me, but I don't feel a need to micromanage my NBE, pm levels or gender identity. I see the different components of myself (gendered and non-gendered) as being largely self-regulating, thereby eliminating a need for constant oversight. Fiscal responsibility doesn't go out the window when I'm shopping for women's clothes. Feeling feminine or wanting to do feminine things doesn't make me oblivious to the fact that I have a mostly masculine body and voice. If my crossdressing/NBE desires got free reign tomorrow, I think the most that would happen is making some tweaks to my wardrobe and perhaps incorporate minor amounts of cosmetics to my appearance. It's not like I would suddenly get into gender therapy, get started on HRT, move to a different city and start living full-time as a woman.
In other words, I see my pursuit of crossdressing and NBE as one of many aspects of myself, versus being alien components with their own agendas that are incompatible with my own values. If there's one thing I'm worried about myself is the possibility of relapsing into depression, not where crossdressing or NBE may take me.