[jannet.duff]

Sitting here today in a somewhat stoic mood, it struck me that 2 weeks ago I was virtually in fact I think I did

lay in bed praying for breasts

and yet today sat here now PM has dumped the t down and set its balancing magic to work

thinking well yes there very cute, quite sweet, and yes I still want to continue growth

I THINK ??????????????????????????????????????????????????

For fucks sake its a never ending merry go round,

BUT it shows the power and as Bryony and I said the sometimes life saving attributes of PM and similar herbs,

How many of us would , could and have done

jumped of bridges
steam rolled to transition
left their families to be a woman,
blown their careers apart
lost their friends, (well ok we can gain some as well)
or just gone insane

what choices do we have ?

if we bottle and ignore her she comes back harder and bites us,

if we go the dr it can be the start of the sausage machine amputation trail, to fast, to quick and many many many girls make mistakes here once the pink fog grips and E takes its bite,

or we can sneak online and purchase synths, which yes can be dangerous,

Basically I am now in a neutral position, a little more balanced going hey these are cute , last week I was driven mad by way way excess levels of T on a partially feminised brain, obssessed by sissy fantasy porn , she male porn wanting , desperately wanting to be female and dominated,
I swear I am an autogenyphilia case, and was as frisky as hell,

the pendelum now has swung more towards middle and the frission depleting ,

These herbs are important to us and those around us

Julie



Your right on with that Julie, it is a ballancing act. PM has defiantly helped me feel more comfortable in my own skin. Although I still get the odd feelings that I want the world to see me in how I want to be seen ( the me that I feel I should be ) I can keep those feeling in check, with the PM. Although I do find myself occasionly second guessing my desires.