[Happyme]

[quote='Happyme' pid='163022' dateline='1446126659']
[quote='Pansy-Mae' pid='163019' dateline='1446100903']

Bobbi,
No, you certainly are not alone.
Notwithstanding Julie's long and technical ramble on the other thread, my analysis of me ( may not work for others ), goes like this:
Part of Anne Vitale's work suggests that at a certain point in foetal development, the mothers male-female hormone balance goes outside the normal female range. This has the effect of pre-programming the male foetal brain to expect a more female hormone regime than the mature male can produce naturally. However the subconcious brain has a need to be balanced, to express the feminine pre-programming. I ( we) do this by wearing female clothes, makeup etc. Often people over-compensate by going to extremes of the fashions of the day i.e skirts that are too short, and or tight, fake boobs that are too big, heels too high to walk in properly, too much make-up, etc. - you only have to look at Youtube video's to see all that! I have to confess to having gone that route myself on occcasion, although generally I've always tried to blend in with GG's rather than stand out, in fetish style.
I think that virtually everybody has gone through several periods of, “I'm not going to do this any more” and dumped everything, only to start again sooner or later. Not sure exactly why that is, generally, but my guess is that it has something to do with an individuals T-production and or emotional state.
For myself, I have also noticed, in hindsight, that my need to dress disappeared when I had a female partner who enjoyed dressing the way I liked – if she would do it for me then I didn't need too do it for myself.

At this point, enter PM! A female hormone mimic, it initially seems to exaggerate to stop-start cycle, depending on dose. However the point is that if the pre-programmed brain gets its female needs satisfied by a hormone look-alike, then it doesn't need to create the 'artificial' cross-dressed blow-up doll. However, take it away and like any junkie the brain's need to replace it is worse than before...and so the cycle goes round.

As I say, this is my take on myself, may not be the same for others.

Thanks Pansy, and Thanks also to Julie!
What you said is spot on. When I met my current wife, I would adore watching her dress, my heart would just stop when she put on a dress I had picked for her. It was amazing. And she was the same size as me so I got to see me through her. We were so alike I used to call her "Bob in a skirt". Unfortunately she has gained a bit of weight and no longer wears anything but sweats and a maxi dress. I'm left to fend for myself so to speak.
Finally I understand something, maybe there is hope for me yet.
Bobbi