[Erin]

Julie, you're like a modern day Yoda, lol. I love to listen to your rational. But you are correct in asking/answering what are the real red flags that highlight someone who just jumped on that runaway train. I just turned 47 and my wife and I really don't have sex anymore. One, she never really had a strong libido where I always wanted her every night. Two, now that I'm recovering from cancer, well, I can't say my libido is near where it used to be. Having a near-death experience has given me a mind-set of "I don't care, what happens down there" because I'm living for me now. With that said, I'm getting ready to buy about a years worth of ainterol and a NB. I already have a running script for finn and spiro for hair loss. Now, my wife does not know what I am doing nor do I plan to tell her. My chemo has already messed with my hormones so that is my alibi. I know she'll still have me regardless because she really loves me, especially after what we been through. I have no desire to "hop the fence" but I'd like to get close enough to peek over the other side. There are so many facets, levels, and characteristics to what we're doing, that there isn't any direct or straight line to what we're trying to accomplish. Mostly because everyone wants something different and they have to find that elusive delicate recipe that works for them. For me, I'd like to have a pretty pair and softer features-already got the butt from soccer, lol. And then you also have a wide varying degree of mental stability here. Most here seem fairly level-headed with reasonable expectations. But let me tell you, I've met a few here that clearly, either demonstrate substance abuse or should be seeking professional help. But going back to the "fence" thing, I personally find an attraction of trying to "ride the fence", to be androgynous where I can be one of the boys, drinking beer, rocking out on drums or bass and getting greasy under the hood but then also be her BFF who likes to go shopping for dresses/shoes and getting mani-pedi's while drinking a glass of wine. You know, have my cake and eat it too. Will I get there, probably not. I'm realistic in that sense. But it's a dream and I'll keep reaching for it.
Thanks for listening.

Erin Lynnette
(the girl in the hooters uniform)