[kerensa]

Can relate to using dressing up as a crutch, as during my first marriage i was a heavy gambler and on particular bad days i would go back home and dress up in the attic, i really didnt like myself going back then and i guess dressing up was a way to escape being me.

Nowadays, like i have already stated i can go weeks or months without feeling the urge to get dressed up, then out of the blue a "trigger" will come along and "she" comes out like a nuclear explosion and i have just got to resist the feeling to fight and just go with the flow for a few weeks.