[Ways Tonn]

Its definitely addictive to me. Idk of its the herb or the desire either or every time i walk away and toss my reserves and current supplies a month maybe 2 3 4 5 maybe a week whatever the time may be it essentially comes back and crashes in to me like a drunk sriver. I am engaged and she has absolutely no idea and what worries me is when my chest becomes obvious breasts and noticeable to all who see me. Pushing out of shirts, nipple size, etc. What she will do. I feel slight gynecomastia you can explain, at 29 maybe lowered t, maybe diet or work environment with xenoestrogens present...but at 29 growing to a full a or b cup im not naive im sure it will bring serious suspicion. Im not fem in any way past shaving my legs nor do i have desires to be a female or crossdresser i just want sizable titties. Perhaps the trance of porn hypno videos, tg captions, forced fem stories have catapulted my mind in to a warp and havinf the access to herbs and creams and realizing they work and hrt and surgery isnt necessary anymore drives my addiction. While im at a mild a cup, not quite full. And while volume is there not so much shape yet i can still conceal them but when they take off....i wonder if ill really be able to stop after real shape takes place...or if ill be like F it i have breasts now officially why stop tits are tits i have them now so why stop...i wish there were more guys here who like me dont tell their spouse at all and have great tips and excuses to get them to buy in to the idk why reasoning cause this addiction cannot be kicked for me. I mus have breasts i must keep growing even if its little by little even if it takes me 2 years to tet an a cup. My worry is i wont be able to stop nd by th time im 40 my slow pace will eventually lead to being solid c cups and ill wake up one day loke wtf so i do now wtf did i do to myself