05-01-2016, 08:52 PM
Hi, Julie!
C'est la vie.
I think you're a little "normal" for my tastes... ::wink::
So... I never thought much about breasts, to be honest, except I liked that girls had them. :-) I wanted the girls, not my own girls. But I wanted to be with them, and I wanted to BE one of them. Boobs didn't register on the radar, in a sense. But being a girl, well, they came with breasts.
I was probably... 7? the first time I crossdressed. Meaning, I consciously wore a woman's clothes to be more like a woman. I'd had to borrow clothes before, but I'm discounting that.
I started to want my OWN breasts somewhere around ... dunno, call it 16? I was crossdressing (underdressing) from time to time by then. Not all the way, but I did wear bras and panties to school. An all-boys school at that! Would've been QUITE a situation, a Catholic Boy's Prep school. :-P
Now, at home, I would sleep in panties and bra, and if I could, a nightgown purloined from mom's drawer. Back then I fit in such small things... Now, not so much.
And yes, there was a LOT of sexual interest. I was on my back, rubbing (like a female), but still calling the shots (think female domme). If I could've played more of a "girl" role physically, I'd probably have had a collection of toys, and transitioned when in college (could've found a way, even then.) Long story short, VERY homophobic in a sense (yet no issues with my gay roommate - funny, huh?), didn't like the "flamers" then (less now), and if it weren't for Rec.Arts.Erotica, no idea HOW I would've coped... Anyway - not much (any?) CDing in college. No interest, either. Probably distracted. But I DID find the pr0n shops of DC... :-D bought a few storybooks, all about trannies (Used generically, no offense meant to anyone). First p0rno I purchased was lesbian, IIRC, and second was Shemale. (I ignored the men in it, I was focused on the shemales. Loni Brown, for example.)
That lasted on and off through my late 20s. And I LOVED the idea of the shemale at that point, as well. I was turned on by the feminine image, but generally nonplussed by the correlation with a female role to males. I'm more a dominant Lesbian type, the male part just means I don't need a strap-on. :-D
And now, having had good and bad girlfriends, and finding that a true feminine presence in my life alleviates a lot of the strain for me (and currently living with a man with female genitals, a domineering person who is NOT dominant - not trustworthy, no follow-through - and finding I'm back to trying to grow breasts and even fantasizing about being a woman? Not interested in the forceful nature of sex here, so.... Not sure if there's a coupling of desires, but if I don't "relieve the pressure" (Even while on PM!) one to 5 times a day, I've got issues.
If I weren't an obese slob, I'd be CDing all the time at home (and I'm working to correct the obese issue, though that's VERY slow going, but OT - between Starbucks and a woman who feeds the negatives, and easy snacks, with low activity? ) and trying to figure out how I can CD, except it's not CDing any more... It's just the "right" clothes.
I guess I'm past the age of party dresses and short skirts. ;-)
Though if I were feminine and fit (E.G., Renee Reyes - not being greedy here! Well, maybe I am... She's good looking and worked for it. "Don't be upset about the results you didn't get, from the work you didn't put in.")
But If I were fit? Yeah, I might be out there every chance I get! (Especially with MY liver....)
BTW, the clothes aren't a trigger at this point, nor is CDing. Nothing special about that. The sexual component is long gone. It's sensual in a lot of ways, but there's nothing about it that has any effect. Probably too much burnout in the rest of life.
-Jean
(05-01-2016, 05:32 PM)julieTG Wrote: Simply a set of QuestionsYOU are feeling odd one out...? ;-) Well, you can't see me, so... ;-) But the posts alone set me WAY out, I'm sure. ;-)
I am starting to feel the odd one out here,
C'est la vie.
I think you're a little "normal" for my tastes... ::wink::
(05-01-2016, 05:32 PM)julieTG Wrote: so my question to you all is
At the thought of growing breasts do you or have you “ever” become sexually excited ?
If yes then
Was it early childhood
Teens
Adult
Now ?
Then please apply same to cross dressing,
Thank You,
Julie
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So... I never thought much about breasts, to be honest, except I liked that girls had them. :-) I wanted the girls, not my own girls. But I wanted to be with them, and I wanted to BE one of them. Boobs didn't register on the radar, in a sense. But being a girl, well, they came with breasts.
I was probably... 7? the first time I crossdressed. Meaning, I consciously wore a woman's clothes to be more like a woman. I'd had to borrow clothes before, but I'm discounting that.
I started to want my OWN breasts somewhere around ... dunno, call it 16? I was crossdressing (underdressing) from time to time by then. Not all the way, but I did wear bras and panties to school. An all-boys school at that! Would've been QUITE a situation, a Catholic Boy's Prep school. :-P
Now, at home, I would sleep in panties and bra, and if I could, a nightgown purloined from mom's drawer. Back then I fit in such small things... Now, not so much.
And yes, there was a LOT of sexual interest. I was on my back, rubbing (like a female), but still calling the shots (think female domme). If I could've played more of a "girl" role physically, I'd probably have had a collection of toys, and transitioned when in college (could've found a way, even then.) Long story short, VERY homophobic in a sense (yet no issues with my gay roommate - funny, huh?), didn't like the "flamers" then (less now), and if it weren't for Rec.Arts.Erotica, no idea HOW I would've coped... Anyway - not much (any?) CDing in college. No interest, either. Probably distracted. But I DID find the pr0n shops of DC... :-D bought a few storybooks, all about trannies (Used generically, no offense meant to anyone). First p0rno I purchased was lesbian, IIRC, and second was Shemale. (I ignored the men in it, I was focused on the shemales. Loni Brown, for example.)
That lasted on and off through my late 20s. And I LOVED the idea of the shemale at that point, as well. I was turned on by the feminine image, but generally nonplussed by the correlation with a female role to males. I'm more a dominant Lesbian type, the male part just means I don't need a strap-on. :-D
And now, having had good and bad girlfriends, and finding that a true feminine presence in my life alleviates a lot of the strain for me (and currently living with a man with female genitals, a domineering person who is NOT dominant - not trustworthy, no follow-through - and finding I'm back to trying to grow breasts and even fantasizing about being a woman? Not interested in the forceful nature of sex here, so.... Not sure if there's a coupling of desires, but if I don't "relieve the pressure" (Even while on PM!) one to 5 times a day, I've got issues.
If I weren't an obese slob, I'd be CDing all the time at home (and I'm working to correct the obese issue, though that's VERY slow going, but OT - between Starbucks and a woman who feeds the negatives, and easy snacks, with low activity? ) and trying to figure out how I can CD, except it's not CDing any more... It's just the "right" clothes.
I guess I'm past the age of party dresses and short skirts. ;-)
Though if I were feminine and fit (E.G., Renee Reyes - not being greedy here! Well, maybe I am...
She's good looking and worked for it. "Don't be upset about the results you didn't get, from the work you didn't put in.")But If I were fit? Yeah, I might be out there every chance I get! (Especially with MY liver....)
BTW, the clothes aren't a trigger at this point, nor is CDing. Nothing special about that. The sexual component is long gone. It's sensual in a lot of ways, but there's nothing about it that has any effect. Probably too much burnout in the rest of life.
-Jean