06-01-2016, 04:47 AM
Hello Julie,
My first piece is not directly related to your question, but I do wonder if it's indicative of my decision to pursue NBE as an adult.
As a rather young child, there was a time when I put two nerf balls under my shirt and went around to my family members asking them to guess who I was. (The correct answer was a woman!
) For the life of me I cannot remember why I did that. This was an age where I only had the basic understanding that men and women are different in the chest area. I guess I did it for attention or else I wanted to imitate the cartoon characters who dressed up and masqueraded as women.
Once puberty came in my teen years, crossdressing and having breasts were very sexual for me. I went through the phase of stuffing my bras with socks, water balloons and eventually breast forms. I certainly was envious that women got to grow breasts while I couldn't. I think because of how ingrained it is, crossdressing and having breasts for me will always have a sexual element. However, I think with the passage of time and developing a better understanding of my motives to crossdress, crossdressing has changed from being strictly sexual to being a very sensual and soothing part of my life. As my outlook on crossdressing changed, so did the idea of having breasts. When I look at the projection my developing breasts form, it's not a turn-on but instead it brings about feelings of fascination and self-satisfaction.
My first piece is not directly related to your question, but I do wonder if it's indicative of my decision to pursue NBE as an adult.
As a rather young child, there was a time when I put two nerf balls under my shirt and went around to my family members asking them to guess who I was. (The correct answer was a woman!
) For the life of me I cannot remember why I did that. This was an age where I only had the basic understanding that men and women are different in the chest area. I guess I did it for attention or else I wanted to imitate the cartoon characters who dressed up and masqueraded as women. Once puberty came in my teen years, crossdressing and having breasts were very sexual for me. I went through the phase of stuffing my bras with socks, water balloons and eventually breast forms. I certainly was envious that women got to grow breasts while I couldn't. I think because of how ingrained it is, crossdressing and having breasts for me will always have a sexual element. However, I think with the passage of time and developing a better understanding of my motives to crossdress, crossdressing has changed from being strictly sexual to being a very sensual and soothing part of my life. As my outlook on crossdressing changed, so did the idea of having breasts. When I look at the projection my developing breasts form, it's not a turn-on but instead it brings about feelings of fascination and self-satisfaction.