[dcdee]

I want to thank everyone for their input. I don't mean to sound bitch or like a sad sack, but it just one of those down in the dumps phases we all go through from time to time.
I know their is not magic bullet (but god i wish there was) and I do realize mileage does vary, just look at all of the variety of breast size and shapes of natal women, and they are wired to have them as original equipment, not as an after market addition. (What is it with all of the car analogies?)
I know what ever I am doing and have done in the past has had a positive impact. I just need to be consistent and maintain a program for more than a couple months at a time.
I think I have found something that is working, I will just have to give it a few more months to see if it will allow me to fully blossom.
I have the patience of a teenager right now. On the cusp of getting what I have wanted for so long, but not knowing what the long term impact will be.
Please keep writing. I know there are many more out there who feel the same way I do, I feel sharing thoughts and feelings about plateaued development will provide the words of encouragement we all need to continue our quest, whatever it may be.