18-08-2010, 11:21 PM
I have just been through a viral infection, that has left me feeling more ill, than anything, I can recall in my adult life. In 10 days I lost a 12 lbs; most off my boobs
In that time, I lost all sense of gender identity; I was just an ill person. I had gone from feeling, that I was fundamentally female, to nothing. In that time I reduced my dose of PM, as I worried about it's effect on my recovery, and foumd some restoration of male sex drive and male personality characterictics, which I found very distastefull. In the last few days I am back on course. So, yes there is a a big mental element in all of this.
As someone, who sees herself as fundamentaly, trangendered, I can see that outside influenceces can bring an influence, on how you feel about yourself.
However, in alll of the 7 weeks of my illness, how I dressed was never a real issue. I have a wardrobe, that is, fundamentaly, unisex, as I live a life, where I am in constant and, unpreditcable, contact with the public and with no private space, so I dress accordnigly.
To dress in truly, female clothing, is a releif; I can be truly me, but there is nothing sexual involved.
I worry, that some of you confuse TV with TS and I would hate you to go down the TS route, because you get a kick from dressing
In that time, I lost all sense of gender identity; I was just an ill person. I had gone from feeling, that I was fundamentally female, to nothing. In that time I reduced my dose of PM, as I worried about it's effect on my recovery, and foumd some restoration of male sex drive and male personality characterictics, which I found very distastefull. In the last few days I am back on course. So, yes there is a a big mental element in all of this.
As someone, who sees herself as fundamentaly, trangendered, I can see that outside influenceces can bring an influence, on how you feel about yourself.
However, in alll of the 7 weeks of my illness, how I dressed was never a real issue. I have a wardrobe, that is, fundamentaly, unisex, as I live a life, where I am in constant and, unpreditcable, contact with the public and with no private space, so I dress accordnigly.
To dress in truly, female clothing, is a releif; I can be truly me, but there is nothing sexual involved.
I worry, that some of you confuse TV with TS and I would hate you to go down the TS route, because you get a kick from dressing