15-03-2016, 03:07 PM
Sorry there's so much shit Katie. Sigh... I've been dating a girl for six years. I love her, and I don't want to hurt her. I know I can't understand an 18.5 year marriage, but I at least know what it means to not want my transition to destroy something. But the thing is, I'm undecided. I don't know what to do yet.
You sound like you know what to do. Granted, I could be wrong, but that's just the vibe I get. There's this writing trope called "stasis equals death" and it basically means that when the hero of a story knows what they need, but won't make any move towards it, then they're basically dead already. It's like that moment when Luke's looking at the two suns on Tatooine. That moment hits hard for two reasons 1. John Freakin' Williams 2. We as the audience know that if Luke doesn't get out of his crappy one-horse moisture farm life, things are pretty much over. From what it sounds like with what's going on with you; you're having that kind of moment.
Can't make a decision for you, but I don't want you to be unhappy for the rest of your life because you don't want collateral damage. There's this quote from Reanimator that's always stuck with me for some reason. "Birth is always painful."
You sound like you know what to do. Granted, I could be wrong, but that's just the vibe I get. There's this writing trope called "stasis equals death" and it basically means that when the hero of a story knows what they need, but won't make any move towards it, then they're basically dead already. It's like that moment when Luke's looking at the two suns on Tatooine. That moment hits hard for two reasons 1. John Freakin' Williams 2. We as the audience know that if Luke doesn't get out of his crappy one-horse moisture farm life, things are pretty much over. From what it sounds like with what's going on with you; you're having that kind of moment.
Can't make a decision for you, but I don't want you to be unhappy for the rest of your life because you don't want collateral damage. There's this quote from Reanimator that's always stuck with me for some reason. "Birth is always painful."