15-03-2016, 05:07 PM
(This post was last modified: 15-03-2016, 05:12 PM by jannet.duff.)
Oh Katie Hon, I know exactly how you feel right now. I am going through exactly the same trauma. ( I don't know how badly you purged, but I would strongly suggest just putting everything in a suitcase and placing it in a location that's not easy to get to without some effort. A few here will tell you, once you have enjoyed the fruits of the femside it's almost impossible to shut that door and walk away. Oh I am sure you can do it for a few weeks, possibly a few months but her voice will always be in the distance, letting you know how badly you miss her. )
I am hearing and getting the same vibes from my wife, sometimes supportive, and bringing home clothes for me ( using some of my tops and going out with her friends ) the next minute she is all quite and moody going on about how being Jannet is ripping us apart. ( she loves the male me, but hates Jannet ) I'm married 28 years now with two sons still living at home. I managed to get myself so wound up a few months ago I ended up at the hospital to talk to a crisis worker, I was so very close to just ending it. In the cold light of day, I have come to realize that this is who I am. I know that if I continue we will need to sell our house and move. Its going to be my wife's decision whether we buy another house with two separate entrances or two separate houses. ( it's been made quite clear she will not share a bad, and cannot love Jannet ). It breaks my heart to feel like this, I love her more and more every day, but I also love her enough to know that if I purge everything I cannot guarantee that these feeling will not come back in time. ( I am 54 years old btw ). I have been offered HRT meds by my therapist, but have elected to hold off till my youngest son has left school. Presently, we are cleaning out junk that seems to accumulate in 20+ years of marriage, cleaning and painting, with the possibility of selling the house during the summer. This is not something I am doing lightly, it's not something I want to do ...it's something I need to do.
I do hope that you find balance, it's a very hard decision we make, no matter what the direction. Of you need somebody to talk to, let me know and I will send you my Facebook account information. ( I'm in Canada btw )
I am hearing and getting the same vibes from my wife, sometimes supportive, and bringing home clothes for me ( using some of my tops and going out with her friends ) the next minute she is all quite and moody going on about how being Jannet is ripping us apart. ( she loves the male me, but hates Jannet ) I'm married 28 years now with two sons still living at home. I managed to get myself so wound up a few months ago I ended up at the hospital to talk to a crisis worker, I was so very close to just ending it. In the cold light of day, I have come to realize that this is who I am. I know that if I continue we will need to sell our house and move. Its going to be my wife's decision whether we buy another house with two separate entrances or two separate houses. ( it's been made quite clear she will not share a bad, and cannot love Jannet ). It breaks my heart to feel like this, I love her more and more every day, but I also love her enough to know that if I purge everything I cannot guarantee that these feeling will not come back in time. ( I am 54 years old btw ). I have been offered HRT meds by my therapist, but have elected to hold off till my youngest son has left school. Presently, we are cleaning out junk that seems to accumulate in 20+ years of marriage, cleaning and painting, with the possibility of selling the house during the summer. This is not something I am doing lightly, it's not something I want to do ...it's something I need to do.
I do hope that you find balance, it's a very hard decision we make, no matter what the direction. Of you need somebody to talk to, let me know and I will send you my Facebook account information. ( I'm in Canada btw )