[Sofia Bunny]

Fire and Ice> I really understand your dilemma, yes I do.

I can relate to your feelings of longing for someone to share your gender related issues in person. I had my share of online contacts during my life, yet no real life connection. I want to point out just one thing: The fact that you are here, that you are pursuing the quest for something so feminine as breasts, the fact that you are not completely rejecting the option of transitioning, says something. I mean - maybe, just maybe, there is some part of your personality that wants to be more feminine. Personal contact with someone can just feed that part of your personality in a way you won't be able to control. I mean, I don't want to discourage you, but still - each step forward can mean step towards more femininity. Where is the threshold you are willing to stop?

On the other side, I would not be so much afraid of trying to have an professional makeover. Such artificial setting is way different to normal life. And who knows, maybe you will find a way to sublimate your feminine desires and they will loose a grip around other aspects of your life...

Thank you polymorphis, I appreciate your input and feedback. I think that's what worries me the most. I am afraid that in finding a friend to connect with, I could potentially be opening Pandora's box. You're quite possibly right in that it could possibly awaken something deep inside that I wasn't consciously aware of and lead me down a new path. It seems like I could be risking a lot in pursuing that particular quest.

I think the professional makeover to me sounds like it could be a lot of fun. Perhaps someday I will be able to find myself at the right place and the right time to give that a try. Hopefully in doing so I do not awaken a desire. I feel like I have enough on my plate, not sure I can fit much more on it.