13-04-2016, 04:56 AM
(13-04-2016, 12:54 AM)Dana Mantra Eon Wrote: Question 1. Do steps that make you closer to transition make you feel happier about yourself?
Thank you Dana for weighing in your opinion in this matter. Honestly, I don't know if I would be any happier in any direction. Could I be happier, maybe, but how long does that really last. With me, probably not for very long. I don't stay in any one mood for too long. Though surprisingly to me, I have stuck to NBE, which is 15 months longer than I really thought it was going to last. LOL. So growing my breasts does make me happy. I love them, they're mine and I want more. Do I see myself being happy becoming more feminine, no, no because I know the end results would mean utter misery for myself. And I feel that it would be something that would be very difficult to get over. I can see myself being content somewhere in between, but what worries me is how far will I push my own boundaries, and will it end leading down a path that I never truly foresaw for myself. Perhaps I am indifferent towards transitioning but due to current circumstances I am barring myself from seeing that in my future.
(13-04-2016, 12:54 AM)Dana Mantra Eon Wrote: Question 2. If so, which happiness matters more: the happiness from transition, or the happiness from your wife, parents, and friends?
Unfortunately I am a people pleaser. Always have been, and will probably always be that way. Yes it has it's faults, but it is for better or for worse who I am, and what makes me, me. So at times I will go through great lengths to ensure the happiness of others, at the sacrifice of my own happiness. Is it right? Is it fair? Ehh, it is what it is. Perhaps I am a coward in that I don't stand up for myself, and worry too much what others will think.
As for the small changes here and there, I really don't need excuses for that. I've been known to do things on a whim, just because. So it wouldn't be too out of the ordinary. Now the breast development, well that's one change that is going to be a little hard to go unnoticed, and probably questioned. :p But, I will deal with that when that day comes.
