[Sofia Bunny]

Fire,
Seems to me that you and I are fairly similar in basic makeup, the differences probably mostly events of our life.

Given that, there are some things that might work better for you than permanent changes.
Obvious one is using breast forms instead of growing them...
But there are also "inflatable" implants, I understand, which can contain more or less saline. So, you could "Grow" for weekends, and "shrink" for male mode. It means an open port, though.

I didn't have time to get back here last night, but I understand the "loss of family" bit.
From my jaded view - WTF difference does it make? Dad died estranged, my sister won't talk to me, and mom is wasting away, developing glaucoma, and not responding to medication (and won't consider cannabis oil).
That's just from my girlfriend. They didn't/don't know I want to be female...

But one of the reasons I was estranged from them is, I was living in sin with a woman... So they didn't want to talk to me.
Fun, huh? Good Christians.... Worried about my immortal soul, after doing everything they could to crush any semblance of a spirit... And by comparison? My sister (adopted) got everything on a golden platter, including medical insurance, car insurance, car, all paid for by Dad.

We regret a lot of things. I regret losing my family.
But I'm also tired of their nasty, judgemental (hypocritical) attitudes. The insulting things they've said to girlfriends, treating me like a child (at 30, and still now at 40... Treating me like I'm an infant...? Stupid?)

Anyway - Consider what's happening, you need to live with the decision. Being a "people pleaser" has isolated me - how could it be worse if I'd at least pleased myself along the way?

YMMV.

-Dianna

I don't want synthetic breasts, I want it to be me. Somehow synthetic just feels like cheating. Plus it just wouldn't look or feel right to me. I choose my battles, but the path of least resistance is usually my choice as it causes the least amount of waves. Now that's not to say that I don't love a challenge, by all means I do. I just don't think this is a challenge I am willing or ready to take on. Too many variables and too many things at stake. For the most part I am content with myself and the pace and path I am currently on.

I think somehow my story has been somehow misconstrued. What I would like is to retain most of my privacy so as not to upset the current balance in my life. A part of me desires to find a like minded, similiary pathed friend. Someone trying to achieve breast growth, whatever their end path may be does not matter, just someone I could talk to and confide with on a 1 to 1 basis. Chat rooms, phone, video, all of that is a bit too impersonal. Not that it is bad, or I don't enjoy it, but it is not quite the same as being able to actually hangout with someone.

As for the temptation of going through a transformation, that is just curiousity as to what I would look like. Theoretically nothing more, nothing less. Unfortunately, I know me and there is a possibility that would just open up Pandora's box. One curiousity usually leads to yet another curiousity, then to another. And sometimes they get harder and harder to contain. There's always the possibility that once that itch is scratched, then things will be satisfied till the next time a curiousity decides to flair up.