So my sexual drive is all but gone. I like it because I am no longer controlled and consumed by sexual urges and desires. Eventually I believe this was going to get me in trouble.
As such, I've not had a need or desire for uhm, self release. As many on here are aware, my nipples are well... a focal "point"
Yesterday late afternoon I was home alone. I was changing and getting comfortable and my arm brushed my nipples which sent lovely shivers up my back. It felt so nice, I continued, and wow, holy smokes.
Now my nipples have always been an erogenous zone for me, and sensitive, but now this is a whole new level. When I say whole new level, I really do mean whole new level. I found myself screaming aloud in ecstasy. I am so glad no one was home.
What I found interesting was that I never peaked. So either I did not push it far enough, or there isn't a peak. I find it hard to believe there isn't a peak, so I am thinking probably did not push my limits far enough. The other thing I found interesting was that since I didn't peak, the feeling lasted much longer, and a lot more intense than previous forms of self gratification.
So basically previously I was like a wide bell curve, where the feelings would slowly build up, upon climax everything would calm back down. Currently with the previous form of self gratification, the bell curve is much narrower, and shorter. The feeling is nowhere near as intense as it used to be, and the climax feels incomplete. Now playing with my nipples the feelings is like an inclined slope, the feeling kept building and going with no apparent end in sight.
So now I wonder what new beast I may have awoken inside of me. Will my boundless curiosity tempt me to test my limits? Have I traded one guilty pleasure for another? Will this lead me back towards I path I was trying to overcome? Questions... questions... so many unanswered questions. *sigh* I suppose time will tell.
Though I find that the experience to me is a bit embarrassing , partially due to sharing this so candidly, I hope that it may be a good reference point in the future.
Other perspectives? Similarities? Feedback? etc. is much appreciated. Please refrain from any vulgarities.
Update:
One other thing that just popped into my head... how much of this is real, and how much of it is mental?
As such, I've not had a need or desire for uhm, self release. As many on here are aware, my nipples are well... a focal "point"
Yesterday late afternoon I was home alone. I was changing and getting comfortable and my arm brushed my nipples which sent lovely shivers up my back. It felt so nice, I continued, and wow, holy smokes. Now my nipples have always been an erogenous zone for me, and sensitive, but now this is a whole new level. When I say whole new level, I really do mean whole new level. I found myself screaming aloud in ecstasy.
I am so glad no one was home.What I found interesting was that I never peaked. So either I did not push it far enough, or there isn't a peak. I find it hard to believe there isn't a peak, so I am thinking probably did not push my limits far enough. The other thing I found interesting was that since I didn't peak, the feeling lasted much longer, and a lot more intense than previous forms of self gratification.
So basically previously I was like a wide bell curve, where the feelings would slowly build up, upon climax everything would calm back down. Currently with the previous form of self gratification, the bell curve is much narrower, and shorter. The feeling is nowhere near as intense as it used to be, and the climax feels incomplete. Now playing with my nipples the feelings is like an inclined slope, the feeling kept building and going with no apparent end in sight.
So now I wonder what new beast I may have awoken inside of me. Will my boundless curiosity tempt me to test my limits? Have I traded one guilty pleasure for another? Will this lead me back towards I path I was trying to overcome? Questions... questions... so many unanswered questions. *sigh* I suppose time will tell.
Though I find that the experience to me is a bit embarrassing
, partially due to sharing this so candidly, I hope that it may be a good reference point in the future.Other perspectives? Similarities? Feedback? etc. is much appreciated. Please refrain from any vulgarities.
Update:
One other thing that just popped into my head... how much of this is real, and how much of it is mental?