[Sofia Bunny]

So as the week has progressed and I travel back home I cannot help but ponder on things. I have thus far not noticed any massive mood swings, no emotional outburts, if anything, I feel... Indifferent.

I look back to the week before and can see the joy and excitement in my face, but I cannot feel it anymore. I can't help but wonder where it went. Perhaps I am just overwhelmed with all this work looming over me, both professionally and at home. Perhaps it is my drop in herbal dosage causing some odd effects on my mind. There are numerous possibilities, or maybe just nothing at all.

So if I start to dig at the idea that perhaps my dosage is affecting my current state of being, I wonder if Sofia came to be because my regiment altered my state of mind. If Sofia is a result of my regiment and I discontinue my regiment, would Sofia fade away? If that were true, then would discontinuing my regiment indefinitely result in my no longer desiring to have breasts. If that's true, then I can't help but ponder if at that point would I look back at what I've done to myself and say... WHAT HAVE I DONE???

So what if everything I have currently become is just a result of a chemical change in my brain due to the herbs I took. And that chemical change is what brought about my desires to feminize myself. Looking back, my original intentions were just to get some breast development, and yet as time has passed I've wanted more, and have somewhat become more.

My curious nature has me wanting to test this out and see where it goes. Unfortunately or perhaps fortunately I am already conducting an experiment and I still have two maybe three more months before I can test the results of that experiment. (Testing the effects of green tea extract consumption if it is indeed increasing my E or not, will run a blood test at the end of the 3rd or 4th month).

I guess we'll see if I ever test out that particular path or not. As for now, I shall continue to ponder over my current indifference.