[tanysquirrel]

Ha ha ha ha, oh my gosh, WHAT HAVE I DONE??? Lol. I totally mean that in a good way. So I decided to work on piecing my before and after pictures together and started looking at my original pictures and thought to myself... Eww, who is that gross man. Then it sank in that it was me.

It fully hit at that point, I don't want to experiment with a long break to see what it does to me. I don't care if the herbs have chemically forcefully changed my brain. I love my new body and what it is becoming, I love the new me! I can't wait for Monday so I can resume my regiment!

Sometimes I really hate my brain, too many thoughts, too many what ifs, an endless sea of scenarios, possibilities, and outcomes. Oh well, guess I'm just wired that way. Still, I miss that feeling I had last week. I want to feel that again, I want to be free and... Okay, sorry I have to stop... I'm in a plane and my eyes are getting really glossy. The

and so it begins (giggle)