[Sofia Bunny]

Sophia,
Your suffering for the "wow brand new first time euphoria syndrome".
Just like the the first love, first sex, first beer, first cigarette, first dynamic kiss, etc.
You can never get that feeling back again, and right now its hard to think that you can top that experience either.
You have seen the other side and it was you. Welcome to the journey of your life, Like Tanya said 'so it begins!'
Hugs
Bobbi

You're quite possibly right Bobbi, perhaps why my interest has turned towards going out dressed. It would be new, and quite possibly exhilarating. *sigh* I fear I may have traded in one vice for another. It is probably a damn good thing I never got into drugs.

I just want what any normal person wants, to feel happy and complete. I don't feel like it's asking for much, but when I stare at it, it seems damn near impossible. Some days I feel like what's the point and would rather drown myself in work than deal with reality. Ha ha, just realized that's probably why people think I'm a workaholic. Oops.