[mimzy]

when my gf (now wife) found out, she and i got down to visit a public clinic then hospital to "sort" out the issue. to a certain extent, i was relieved that finally this problem can go away. it was quite an experience.
and it did for a couple of years.
then it came back, like a big storm.

over the following 15 years, i started with a panty, after much persuasion. till i wear a bra to work under my guy clothes with make up.
we used to shout at each other too. she even threw a chair at me before!

nowadays, she knows i enjoy doing it, but she doesnt really want be involved directly. I have also come to an conclusion i am really quite comfortable staying as a guy.
The best part she enjoys now are
1. shopping with her best gf (who is in guy mode)
2. grabbing my shopping as her property if it fits her size, which generally is just one size bigger.

nope, she doesn't always enjoy making love to another woman.
the other day, on the bus, i sat there looking at a girl dressed and behaving as a guy (which is prevalent and seemingly acceptable in my country), and asked myself if i will enjoy making love to such a woman. Immediately i find that repulsive, and stuck my tongue out.

my whole process took 15 years with lots of tussle in other life issues and i am glad we are still together. Very happy.

And she just gave me an earful on using breast cream last week. And she still say stuff like..
"why you can't be normal?
I am too tolerant of your habits".

Nah, I don't get as agitated by these kinds of statements anymore.

I always asked myself, why am i behaving in this way, why am i behaving in that way. A lot of times, i reached the same conclusion that she always reminds me...its because i am still thinking, feeling and behaving like a guy.

hope my sharing helps.