[The First Aria]

Not really sure if I moved from atop the fence, maybe it's more the fact that I am a lot more accepting of my plight or gift?? And willing to be more upfront about it??

I hope that makes sense, it's the only way I can verbalize how I feel and think. Sorry if that mucks it up, but that is the best example I can give right now.

The funny thing is. Now that my wife has known for quite a while 15- 20 yrs about my "Hobby", and now another very important person in my life knows (aka Doctor ), I now have a concern that I will have to express and push for her understanding on me playing around with Estrogenic Herbs and such. I am, in a way, hoping that she Rx's the needed drugs to help me feminize.

But, I want to state forcibly, that I do NOT want to turn in my "Man Club Card". After 60 yrs, or at least 30yrs of being a man I would never do that to my wife, kids or Grand Kids. I really don't feel the need to do that kind of upheaval.

Rather I want to be a chameleon.. Change color's , sort of speaking, when I feel like I need or want to and have the comfort in knowing I am not just making a mockery of the female body. I have too much respect to do that.

Screwed up thought process, eh??? LOL... Well, that's me!