[HannahL]

If there was a magic pill to wake up looking like a girl, and there were no consequences, I would take it in a heartbeat.

I'd consider myself quite an optimistic person, but I do have some of those feelings. I don't think I've had really bad depression though. I sometimes get paralysed with obsessive thoughts over gender and what I'm going to do about it.... It also stops me from pursuing relationships because I don't know what I'm going to do. I've been delying things for years now, and it doens't exactly get easier. It feels like a race against time... That being said, I think many of us will live far longer because of science and medicine advances. I also think that changing gender will be a non issue in 20 years or so (at least in the west and parts of asia).

Some of us are quite lucky though to be androgynous. I think that's what's helped me. I already get people thinking I am a girl already while out and about (and on the phone).and I feel fortunate that I've at most been boyish. I try to concentrate on the positive aspect of my appearance rather than focus too much on the negative. Like, I think that I have feminine long hair, nose and chin lol xD Focus more on the good...

Anyway, keep your head up, things will be better. = )