[Nikki9]

Okay,

Had a total male fail when I went to the supermarket earlier, had decided to dress up last night and well I totally forgot to put male mode back on. The cashier though just smiled knowingly, I think she knew straight away but she just got on with her job, and was really chatty to me.

No it wasnt that which was the problem it was everyone checking out my ass when walking around and I wasnt thinking about how I was walking. Nothing was said but I definately caught a few people doing a bit of a double take, especially as I am starting to approach a B cup in the breasts and clean shaven, have fairly long hair and was generally dressed pretty androgenously.

I really dont feel male anymore, I am pretty sure I am well on the way to chemical castration and my male parts are pretty much decorative only. At present about the only thing holding me back is that I still havent got rid of my body hair, (well and losing another 80lbs!) as I am worried that when I get rid of it there is nothing holding me back from going full femme.

I also have attached a pic of my chest, although it doesnt look as good in the pic as in real life, but is the result of 4 months BO with PM and progesterone cream.

Despite having a male fail, when I got back this morning my first thought was how much longer can I hold things off and then I thought might as well get the practice with the make up in, as I am not going anywhere else today. I decided to take some more pics, and er...........well meet Megan (I decided to go with the middle name Jessica in the end for those of you who have read fire and ices thread). Now that Megan is out she wont go away and as she is way more confident and outgoing than the male me I am not sure I want her to completely go away anyway.

I thinking of seeing my GP in the next week or so to get the ball rolling, as well as speaking to parents, siblings etc - I think my mum has a good idea, as she always likes a hug and she gave me a much longer one last time I saw her and would definately have noticed the changes to my figure.

I probably need a little time to calm down and am definately not going to rush into anything silly, but cant believe how unmale I am currently feeling its going to be an interesting few months!

Apologies for the length of the post, er I might have gotten carried away or just rambling, I cant decide which

Satya (Megan) - I'll be keeping the username as it is for now

The first pic I would have to say you look like a woman to me. Umm did you do laser or electro or home pulse light to remove ur hair????

Im currently on my 3rd shot of HPL and I can say it is working on my legs and chest and pits but its I dunno slow going... every 2 weeks...


Thanks in advance

Hi Nikki,

No nothing done to my face in the pic or at all so far - just managed to get a really close shave and the pic was taken about 2 hours later and the hair hadnt come through yet! The foundation was really thick as well. I am considering getting my face done - I think waxing will take care of the body though as I got waxed 5 weeks ago for the first time and some of the hairs havent come back at all yet!

Megan

Yea i bought a silk n flash and go with 5k flashes sadly the next week the posted a compact for the same price with 150k flashes but I can see it working on my legs and some spots on my chest just my face is really slowed down no spots not growing back thou...went from shaving it once a day to shaving it every 3 days in 3 sessions of zapping so i think its working... My pits are now shaved every 2 weeks after 3 sessions im amazed My legs chest i did 1 time so far because i get ingrowns / red bumps and i gotta wait for them to go away before i can do it again.


oh and if you havent tryed one yet I seriously suggest this its a DIY Facial mask called charcoal facial I found it on yahoo it makes ur skin so soft and removes any blackheads you got. All it takes is Elmer non toxic glue and active charcoal.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8TvO--GtlFo super easy and super inexpensive cost me like 13 bucks and you only need really 3 charcoal pills and a little glue so i figure i can get 20 or so masks maybe more...