[The First Aria]

I really enjoy reading about your experiences, iaboy. Thank you for all the reports!

I especially relate to your statement of the partner trying to ignore, deny or close her eyes to something that scares her. I, myself, am thinking about having consultation with a gender therapist. I still do not plan to transition, but I would really like to speak with someone experienced with more people with similar issues as I have. I also would like to have an assessment before I and my GF get married. I told my GF about it and, while she really don't mind me wearing feminine clothes at home, she said that she was really worried about such idea and that she was rather against. Her reason is that me seeing a gender therapist would mean that: "... this condition is not just fun, but something more serious" and that she: "would be worried that one day she will wake up next to a woman with D-sized breasts." And then she added: "Hey, you would be bigger than me!" I don't blame her. I completely understand her worries, so I'll just give her more time.

I enough about me. I really don't want to hijack this thread

I think our partners are often more confused and scared than we are. Maybe that's why you feel that sometimes she is testing you by commenting about your clothes etc. I don't think she tries to lure you into some kind of trap...

Anyway, I would like to ask you to continue with your reports. There's no need to write everything, but maybe just one or two interesting ideas from time to time

Poly

Thanks Poly. You needn't worry about a hijack. It just gives a background of where you are coming from.

I think you are right. Although there is one point, at least in my case, I would have to differ with. The following you stated.

"I think our partners are often more confused and scared than we are. Maybe that's why you feel that sometimes she is testing you by commenting about your clothes etc. I don't think she tries to lure you into some kind of trap..."

I think I am more confused and concerned, or at least as much, as my wife might be. For 1/2 of my life, I don't remember being as confused as I have been for nearly 3 decades. No matter rather I decide that HRT is for me or not, there is still questions and nearly not enough answers. Yet.

But hence the reason for the Therapist, right? At least it gives me a total 3rd party's different point of view if nothing else.