25-09-2016, 09:33 AM
I can atest to those feelings, I have also struggled with them from a very ealy age, now in my 50's it never went away.
In my mind the younger you are, the better you are going to look and pass. Of course having your own hair is a massive bonus.
No one here is a gender therapist, all we can do is give you a view of our own life experiences.
At 50+ I did not expect to be taken seriously by my gender therapist, I never thought I "filled" the right boxes to get prescribed hormones, never mind recommend SRS on my records.
Those feeling of doubt your having are normal, I occasionly have them, some of the older girls in my transgender group have them.
I suspect if you take herbs for 6 - 12 months or so then take a little time off, that will tell you all you need to know without a therapist. PM offered me piece I had not felt in a long time it starts slow, so slow you never even realize it's happening, but whenever I took a break from the herbs, as the PM started to be depleted, my GD came back with a force so strong I was contemplating suicide.
I always felt I was not showing people the real me, they just saw my shell, my front, that I hold in front of myself to be accepted as one of them. I never felt male, and never tried to be an Alpha male in any situation.
Hava you tried to find a transgender support group in your area ?? You don't have to go as your true self to be accepted. But what they will be able to offer is resources and a real eye to eye person to discuss your situation with.
I speak from experience, this feeling is not going away.
In my mind the younger you are, the better you are going to look and pass. Of course having your own hair is a massive bonus.
No one here is a gender therapist, all we can do is give you a view of our own life experiences.
At 50+ I did not expect to be taken seriously by my gender therapist, I never thought I "filled" the right boxes to get prescribed hormones, never mind recommend SRS on my records.
Those feeling of doubt your having are normal, I occasionly have them, some of the older girls in my transgender group have them.
I suspect if you take herbs for 6 - 12 months or so then take a little time off, that will tell you all you need to know without a therapist. PM offered me piece I had not felt in a long time it starts slow, so slow you never even realize it's happening, but whenever I took a break from the herbs, as the PM started to be depleted, my GD came back with a force so strong I was contemplating suicide.
I always felt I was not showing people the real me, they just saw my shell, my front, that I hold in front of myself to be accepted as one of them. I never felt male, and never tried to be an Alpha male in any situation.
Hava you tried to find a transgender support group in your area ?? You don't have to go as your true self to be accepted. But what they will be able to offer is resources and a real eye to eye person to discuss your situation with.
I speak from experience, this feeling is not going away.