28-09-2016, 08:41 PM
(27-09-2016, 06:02 PM)johnnyboy7585 Wrote: Great post. I'm like many, I wanted to feel more fem, some cures maybe some breasts. But once things got on a roll, I really liked the feeling. I'm wanting more. Lately I get depressed that I feel like im stuck in two worlds. I feel like my whole life surrounds being a male. With herbs, bo, pm they have done wonders. I want to continue, however I know there will be no tuning back. I was at the gym today and I looked at the mior and noticed how big my chest has gotten, my nipples are starting to bud so tight shirts soon will be out of the question. Its what I've come to realize, and ok with it. In fact I acully want it. I hide my true self well, but It comes to the point of how far do u want to go? I look at cis women and get jealous at how lucky they r to be a real women. No hidden sercerts, just being themselves. No one but u guys knows how I really feel, love the support.
I completely understand exactly what you mean.. ive more often than i can count to myself, thought "why is society so cruel to me. all i want is my own happiness. they have it, within them selves. why cant i?"
That slope is a crazy one with many sharp turns. IF you get caught up in it... i keep a journal to make sure i dont do anything stupid like one day decide im going to push for HRT. Thats not who i am right now, i remind myself with words and written reminders.
I think the most important thing is to always remember who you are and who you want to be at all times, not just in the moment. If you can achieve it and have no regrets, go for it. If there is a chance to regret it, dont.
Not saying that you may regret it. down the line(Depression has no gender...), just never forget why you choose to do anything. Its your reasons, the importance of them. That drives dedication and happiness. Or else its a endless circle.