29-09-2016, 06:36 PM
I forgot about this post since I was out of town when it was posted and didn't get a chance to respond. When I started I was a definite no. I just didn't see that as an option for me due to family work etc. Plus I was pretty sure I would make one scary hideous woman. I never ruled it out as a possibility as one just never knows what tomorrow will bring. I would also ask myself if I wanted to be a woman, and always came to the same conclusion, no, just wasn't for me. Though I really wasn't much of a manly male to begin with, I suppose I have always sat on the fence, but more so male than female.
Things got really murky for me when I did my makeover session. Turned out, I didn't look too bad as a female. So there went one of the big ones that was keeping me from considering transitioning. While the answer was still no, it was a hesitant and mildly reluctant no. Then there was work, having to deal with that would be too much of a nightmare and to me just not worth the headache. That changed recently as now I can pretty much work from home! Well damn, there went another one. So examining things now as to would I, I am not sure anymore, maybe? Sometimes it's maybe yes, other times it's maybe no. Digging deeper, it's family that is the hinderance. My parents would not understand, nor my grandparents, pretty much would be disowned. And my wife definitely doesn't understand or accept this, and no matter how many times or different ways I try and bring it up it never goes well. So I can't even come out to my wife. But it does appear that with time ones perspective and outlook may perhaps skew from one side to the other. Though I think for myself I don't think I would fit well 100% of either. I think going with how I feel that day fits me a lot better.
Long story short, I didn't wish for this, it was never something I considered on the table, but somehow there it is, staring me right in the face.
Things got really murky for me when I did my makeover session. Turned out, I didn't look too bad as a female. So there went one of the big ones that was keeping me from considering transitioning. While the answer was still no, it was a hesitant and mildly reluctant no. Then there was work, having to deal with that would be too much of a nightmare and to me just not worth the headache. That changed recently as now I can pretty much work from home! Well damn, there went another one. So examining things now as to would I, I am not sure anymore, maybe? Sometimes it's maybe yes, other times it's maybe no. Digging deeper, it's family that is the hinderance. My parents would not understand, nor my grandparents, pretty much would be disowned. And my wife definitely doesn't understand or accept this, and no matter how many times or different ways I try and bring it up it never goes well. So I can't even come out to my wife. But it does appear that with time ones perspective and outlook may perhaps skew from one side to the other. Though I think for myself I don't think I would fit well 100% of either. I think going with how I feel that day fits me a lot better.
Long story short, I didn't wish for this, it was never something I considered on the table, but somehow there it is, staring me right in the face.