[polymorphis]

Poly you radiate femininity, you want to remain male? With such prominent breast growth and long hair and shapely nails how do you go about passing off as male? Just curious cause if you can than whoa #majorhope and inspiration

Oh, thank you for your kind words!

Well, I am passing as a male without any problems. In fact, outside of my closet, I present as male only. During last year, I've got ma'amed only handful of times.

Maybe it will surprise you, but I've been outside dressed as a girl only once, many years ago, and that was while attending the last bell celebration for high school graduates - there is a custom in Czech Republic to dress in different costumes during that day.

So ... #majorhope?

Actually, I would like to be able to incorporate my feminine qualities more into my life. I manage to do that slowly, one step at a moment. For me it is something like partial transition. It is more psychological than physical process. When I fully accepted that me being transgendered is not just a fetish and when I begun to uncover and embrace my feminine qualities, level of my anxiety dropped. On the other side, I am still not 'there'. I would like to be brave enough to go out en femme from time to time. However, I am rather anxious person and fear of being ridiculed holds me back.

But full transition is something I am not considering at the moment. It would be too difficult and with current state of my life negatives would too far outweigh the positives. Moreover, I believe that the true strength of us, transgender people, is in our duality. I don't say me transitioning could not happen, but my life or my insight would have to change in a major way.

Poly