04-10-2016, 12:27 AM
O.k.. Here goes.
What lead me to this state of mind.
As some of my friends have already read on my "Therapist" thread. At first, I thought it was when my wife and I did a cross dress session for a Halloween Party. My therapist thought that rather than creating a false narrative of my condition.... it was more of a revelation that I would have to act on sooner or later.
Let me regress a little bit. I was brought up by my mother, that for a man to show an interest in all things was not a bad thing. Now, she never encouraged me to dress as the other sex, but she would buy me a doll and an action figure clear up till I was like 9yrs old. Also, traditional things like chemistry sets, a BB gun, clothes etc. But it was around the time I started to have friends come over and stay the night. We would go out and run the neighborhood till dusk, come home and eat pizza ect. A lot of times there was always some kind of a "boys" movie on, like sci-fi, zombies, Dracula ect.
But I learned real quick not to have my dolls out, my action figures was o.k.. You know, G.I Joe's and what not.
My mom was also very lax with nudity. Not that she would go out in the main house nude for minutes or hours, but as she explained..... "There are a few differences in boys/girls, you should know and not be afraid of it." But, at the same time, if she forgot a towel after taking a bath, she would ask someone to get her one. Or she would just simply walk the 10 feet from the bathroom to her and dad's bedroom and get dressed.
I have always been fascinated by women's bodies... Both aesthetically and sexually. But, I was always upset with the fact they could wear pretty clothes that seemed to have hugged most of their curves. I figured that it was totally unfair, so wrong that they could wear pretty and sometimes revealing clothes, silky, stretchy. But for boys/guys it was taboo.
After a couple of sessions, my therapist sort of surprised me with her idea that I probably was of both worlds, both sexes most, if not my entire life. Maybe I could say shocked was the better word.
Anyways, I wonder how many of my friends here run parallel to my life and feelings? I would love the short answer, and if there were slight differences, please explain. I am truly interested.
What lead me to this state of mind.
As some of my friends have already read on my "Therapist" thread. At first, I thought it was when my wife and I did a cross dress session for a Halloween Party. My therapist thought that rather than creating a false narrative of my condition.... it was more of a revelation that I would have to act on sooner or later.
Let me regress a little bit. I was brought up by my mother, that for a man to show an interest in all things was not a bad thing. Now, she never encouraged me to dress as the other sex, but she would buy me a doll and an action figure clear up till I was like 9yrs old. Also, traditional things like chemistry sets, a BB gun, clothes etc. But it was around the time I started to have friends come over and stay the night. We would go out and run the neighborhood till dusk, come home and eat pizza ect. A lot of times there was always some kind of a "boys" movie on, like sci-fi, zombies, Dracula ect.
But I learned real quick not to have my dolls out, my action figures was o.k.. You know, G.I Joe's and what not.
My mom was also very lax with nudity. Not that she would go out in the main house nude for minutes or hours, but as she explained..... "There are a few differences in boys/girls, you should know and not be afraid of it." But, at the same time, if she forgot a towel after taking a bath, she would ask someone to get her one. Or she would just simply walk the 10 feet from the bathroom to her and dad's bedroom and get dressed.
I have always been fascinated by women's bodies... Both aesthetically and sexually. But, I was always upset with the fact they could wear pretty clothes that seemed to have hugged most of their curves. I figured that it was totally unfair, so wrong that they could wear pretty and sometimes revealing clothes, silky, stretchy. But for boys/guys it was taboo.
After a couple of sessions, my therapist sort of surprised me with her idea that I probably was of both worlds, both sexes most, if not my entire life. Maybe I could say shocked was the better word.
Anyways, I wonder how many of my friends here run parallel to my life and feelings? I would love the short answer, and if there were slight differences, please explain. I am truly interested.