[The First Aria]

O.K..  Now for the "Worries and Fears" part of this exercise.

Now, here is where I lay bare the core of my soul....  I hope this is cathartic, but I am not sure as I am still dealing with my "inner Goblins".

Let me set it up like this.  There are a few reasons why most people fear death.

1.  The pain and uncertainty of "Going Over".

2.  Never seeing the loved ones again.  Except maybe if it's true that everyone meets up on the other side.  But there is a long wait hopefully.  

Now, as far as being trans gendered, I suppose most responsible, caring person has almost the same worries.  

1.  Will I just be a caricature of a woman when en femme?
2.  Will I become a poor knockoff as a man when in macho mode?
3.  Will my current living situations be irrevocably be dashed to bits?
4.  Will this path I am on lead to a little more stability for me and or happiness??

Or, and in my mind one of the biggest questions??  Will I be just putting things off for non existent fears and reservations? If I get offered HRT, that is and not accept it ?

Now I know, no one truly knows the outcome of the above questions when the first search for the answers to the above questions.  They may hope for the best, but expect the worst.  I also know, there are many branches that come off all the questions I have just stated.  I would love to hear how you dealt with such questions.   Good or bad.