[Jessica4581000]

Ok, I`m starting to feel a little bit nervous now! in less than 24 hours time it will be over and done, and then it`s be the Next thing (whatever that mgiht be????), I pretty sure that  when I go in there and tell her nothing bad`s going to happen, she`s not going to press a secret buzzer under her desk so security can whisk me away to some padded cell and feed me thorazine and largactyl before I have my ECT that`ll leave 2 smoking holes where my eye balls used to be, I`m pretty sure that won`t happen.
I`m pretty sure?

so what am I worried about? I have no idea really but I am.
I`m going to have myself a nice long hot bath (and a shave in case she wants to inspect my chest) and try and figure out what I`m worried about here.

I know I need to do this, and I know I Will do it, but it`s really scary for some reasons I can`t even explain to myself.

*sigh*

Of course it's scary, and exciting at the same time! it's your first step toward becoming the person that you know has been on the inside, but now you are making the changes to the exterior so that they will both jive with each other!
Good luck and know that we gurls on here "got your back"!