[Allyson]

I've been away and just seeing this- I am so sorry this happened.  Lots of folks here are rooting for you, but so glad you have reached out for some local help.  I have no magic healing words, but know that you can get through this, and that life is always worth living, even if it's tough to see it from the low spot you're in.  Sometimes what seem like the worst moments in life we later recognize as turning points where things started to get better.   I hope that this is the case for you now.