[MeganJ]

I didn't know if I should share this story about  something that happened to myself or not bother anyone else with it.  as I have been on this quest for breast going on the third year I have questioned the why would I want this. So in my searches for an answer  I started to think that I may be actually  be transgender but could never prove to myself that I was for certain, till two nights ago I had the most wonderful experience regarding this. Anyone who reads this may think this person is out there! As usual a somewhat slumber I was in when out of nowhere a voice from within said, yes I am transgender, and immediately the most peaceful serene feeling went through my body from head to toe just like a heavy weight had been lifted and at that point I knew for certain my answer had presented itself. Yes I am for certain transgender and I am female to some extent somewhere on the gender spectrum. The feeling of joy was so good, where I go from here I don't know, would be nice to do some therapy for this. I know this sounds korny to read something like this but it did happenandas I am not out to anyone I decided to share this with this forum for there is no  one else to talk to about it. For certain I have struggled with this the guilt of feeling this way but things look better  at this point. Thanks for listening and I hope it wasn't to strange.      Jazmynne.

Hi Jazmynne,

Sounds much like my own experience, just had a wave of emotion pass over me and it was like a light had been switched off in my head. I had the most pleasant dream that night after were i was female in the dream and was travelling. I ended up with a vision of being in a meadow on a hillside have never been back there in a dream but if my mind wonders during the day thats where i end up.

Am at the point where I am pretty sure that I am going to end up transitioning I just have to feel 100% ready first. I guess am not in denial about it anymore and dont feel guilt about feeling this way anymore but there are practicalities to consider. That said in my head I am slowly coming around to the idea that things wouldnt be as bad as I think and the barriers can be overcome.

The main regret i have now is why didnt i accept things earlier........I could be there already! Still I always like to do things in my own way and in my own time and really not sure i would have coped with this any earlier.

Am sure most of us here have similar tales and regrets about putting things off though!

Megan