Darla,
As you say, we are all different so you are the only one who can answer your own question about who/what you are. We have all asked basically the same question, of course, and have to find our own answers, and if it helps you to talk to somebody, as you are doing, then thats great.
For me personally, I guess I was fortunate in some ways, because although as a teen in the '60's I had to keep my cross-dressing secret, it never felt 'wrong' and I have always felt as comfortable/natural wearing female clothing as male. That was the answer for me, to not try to define myself as something specific, but simply to accept that I am me and go with the flow, whichever direction that is at any given time. As a f'rinstance, I normally wear a bra all day because I like it, but I've just come back from a holiday where I spent virtually the whole time "topless" by the pool because a bikini would have simply been much too obvious.
As you say, we are all different so you are the only one who can answer your own question about who/what you are. We have all asked basically the same question, of course, and have to find our own answers, and if it helps you to talk to somebody, as you are doing, then thats great.
For me personally, I guess I was fortunate in some ways, because although as a teen in the '60's I had to keep my cross-dressing secret, it never felt 'wrong' and I have always felt as comfortable/natural wearing female clothing as male. That was the answer for me, to not try to define myself as something specific, but simply to accept that I am me and go with the flow, whichever direction that is at any given time. As a f'rinstance, I normally wear a bra all day because I like it, but I've just come back from a holiday where I spent virtually the whole time "topless" by the pool because a bikini would have simply been much too obvious.