[Happyme]

Thats great that you have been to a therapist and you know where you are. If you have no desire to dress of to feminize then grow your breasts until you are happy with there size, enjoy them and then go about doing your boy things until you feel the urge to work the boobs. You dont have to go to DD's. Give them a massage once in a while and find a size your comfortable with.
Then you can enjoy both parts of your life. and keep Mr Happy Happy.
Bobbi

Haha that would be delightful, I'm just curious how much of a reality that can be being married. I feel you can only play the idk why i growing boobs card for so long before concern becomes suspicion. Being a woman is not something I identify with at all not even close but having breasts has become what feels a part of me that's missing physically. But the fear of stares and glares and such worry me and being insecure as it is it doesn't help. Any insight in how to quit caring

AGE will do it!
However I'm 68 and your 30. I can tell you for sure that when your less than 50yo you worry about about presentation, acting professional, caring what people think and say. Looking out for your future is probably the best way to put it.
After you hit 50 you give a shit less about trying to impress anyone cause the retirement is in the future, your family is formed and growing/grown, what ever you made of your career is set, and you look back at all the stuff you wanted to do but were too sane and chicken.
Then is the time to let yourself loose, your T is depleting and your boobs are growing by them selves, assuming you have some extra fat on ya. You can blame your boob growth on your age and weight, and give it a little boost with some herbs!
And you will feel the urge to start taking care of your self, lose weight, tone up and let those booby's shine.
There, its easy, just need some time.
Bobbi