[MeganJ]

HRT Greenlight from my Wife-Now I need advice ?

Nervously but a little excited I put this forward
As in another  post I trialled a diagnostic amount of real E to see how it felt, the results were like nectar to my body, I have tried e before but always mixed in with pm, but this was pure E.
For a while I have wondering about pm vs E and the safety and wanted to try the pure version in small low non transition doses.
Now  my wife is my life (corny I know), but she is, and I never do things behind her back so last night in the pub broached more therapy and indeed trialling a low dose of real E , she is good with pm and growth but has always been a little worried about real E, but when I explained I need to quiet this noise and all pm does to me was make me grow and does not quell the noise, hence my decision to try E and perhaps under blood work testing, she said yes makes sense.
Gosh,
Umm so I explained the Pandora box danger gamble, ie low dose could calm me for 5, 10, or more years or break me open and advance transition,
She said , umm , lets see if you can try for 10 years, if too much too bear after than , then just go for it and transition.
Picture Julie open mouthed
She said after 10 year s, kids are gone, its just you and me so yes, why should you not live as a woman,
Picture Julie, even more open mouthed,
I can adjust to most things as you know,
Now I am in a floundry, the thought of real E excites me, it always has, but am I making an error,
Does low dose stealth really work ?
How long can a Girl last under the radar ?
I know with PM it is transition, but is using E real transition ?
Is there a big difference between pm and e ?
This no longer fantasy on E , the next step could be reality
I really am spinning a little here today
 
Julie

Hi Julie,

I guess you never know until you try!

Being on a transition level dose (6mg a day) my results have been rapid growth to the point where I cant really hide my obvious breasts anymore unless I wear a shirt all the time and even then they are getting prominent if you were looking for them.  I have found myself just caring less and less about people knowing and to be honest am starting to get read as a woman even making no effort in terms of presentation.  Thats after less than 6 months HRT although have been on a transition dose for most of those. 

A large part of it is in your own head I guess but to me starting on HRT just made me feel right for the first time in ages, it has totally turned off the background static I have likened it to a radio being tuned in properly.  A large part of things for me was not being in denial about things anymore and not worrying about what other people think. It would be easier for me to be stealthy about things with shorter hair and not dyeing it but my brain just tells me I want nice long very blonde hair although the phyiscal changes I am getting would probably be very obvious after about a year at the current dose regardless of anything else. 

I guess you could always try a low dose and see if you like the results, if not a low dose with no anti-androgen or an NBE androgen shouldnt result in much development over a short period, but I cant say I stuck at a low dose for more than a month although I had the mental changes very quickly the physical ones didnt occur until I ramped up the doseage.

The only issue would be that you might well just rip the lid of the box and chuck it to one side never to put it back, but I guess you wont know if thats the case until you try.  I would expect this is less of an issue on a low dose although I always felt like transition was just something I would have to do at a certain point than had in mind at the start.  

It sounds like your wife is very understanding about things, I guess at worse you know what will happen if you like it too much but as each of us is different you wont know until you try you can always stop again if needed.

Megan