[julieTG]

yes its a hard life we lead,

What stops transition, well I still dont feel I want to be a woman, I just want the noise and obssession to go , it takes up so much thinking time,

But yes def kids at mo, not so much professional life,

I still describe myself as its so sexually driven for me as a

Partially autogeniphiliac transsexual,

the label fits so well,

its just what to do about it,

anyway at the moment ,

20/04/17 started micro doses of E, no aa,

already nipples and aerola are starting too shoot out , I really hope I do not have one of those super sensitive bodies to E ?

console myself with the fact that at the end of 4 months of being off pm, breasts lit up by themselves and started growing again along with sex drive through roof, odd ?

so I am taking E to hopefully calm,

The aim is to give it a 3 month-6 month trial for an estrogen reset, and soak the brain in it,

have read about several people doing this and effects last for some time,

what I find with pm is , it drops the T but does not calm me, it just continually turns me on , until I reach tank position


Tank position is then when T level drops and I literally SWITCH OFF, and go yuck and turn against it all, and its literally overnight,

It seems and I could be wrong my ideal position is subdued T, and we shall see if an addition of real E helps,

Oh well , all in the name of research eh ?


Julie