01-08-2017, 02:16 PM
Every minute of the day at some level ?
Not anymore, I'm at peace with what I am, and who I am. If the day and events call for sweaty dirty work then its dirty Tee's and shorts. If its a stay home lay day, then its time for make up and pretty things.
There was a time tho when I couldnt wait for the day to end so I could let ME out.
Every hour ?
Once a week ?
Or describe
Are thoughts mentally exhausting you ?
They used to! I would have days of not knowing which end was up.... not like that Julie...Just the am I supposed to be a female? What am I? am I a closet homo? What would happen if I went out in pulic in a dress?
Are the thoughts taking a huge section of your life away ?
Like I said, It used to. I guess age and retirement have let me be the two people I enjoy, and I have found that I am happy in a sundress and dont need all the sexy gowns and mini dresses in my closet.
Are the thoughts making you or ever have become suicidal even at a brief moment ?
Never, Life is much to special for me to put an end to it. Even bad days are better than NO days.
Have the thoughts got worse or more invasive over the years,
Has HRT/Pm calmed or made them worse ?
I love what PM has done for me. I'm much calmer, hair growth is very slow and I love the familiar ache in my breasts. And of course I love the addition of boobs.
Yes when the thoughts are bad and running hot , its very mentally exhausting, am going to bed with buzz, dreaming about buzz and waking up with it,
Yes the thoughts are taking huge chunks of my life away, I cannot watch or concentrate on a film or much, I am just not present in the situation, the only exception too this is work or when involved in a hard physical hobby,
For me Julie, You hit the nail on the head with the statement above. I have a new barn that can hold 6+ cars and a two post lift. I have always been a greasy fingered mech, and now I'm retired and can work all my treasures without crawling around on the ground or rolling on a creeper.
I still wear girl shorts everyday and sometimes a bra if I have a dark color Tee shirt. But I am fully engrossed in doing what I love to do, so what I am wearing is immaterial. The feelings of femininity become stronger when I dont have anything to occupy my hands and mind.
Thanks
Bobbi
Not anymore, I'm at peace with what I am, and who I am. If the day and events call for sweaty dirty work then its dirty Tee's and shorts. If its a stay home lay day, then its time for make up and pretty things.
There was a time tho when I couldnt wait for the day to end so I could let ME out.
Every hour ?
Once a week ?
Or describe
Are thoughts mentally exhausting you ?
They used to! I would have days of not knowing which end was up.... not like that Julie...Just the am I supposed to be a female? What am I? am I a closet homo? What would happen if I went out in pulic in a dress?
Are the thoughts taking a huge section of your life away ?
Like I said, It used to. I guess age and retirement have let me be the two people I enjoy, and I have found that I am happy in a sundress and dont need all the sexy gowns and mini dresses in my closet.
Are the thoughts making you or ever have become suicidal even at a brief moment ?
Never, Life is much to special for me to put an end to it. Even bad days are better than NO days.
Have the thoughts got worse or more invasive over the years,
Has HRT/Pm calmed or made them worse ?
I love what PM has done for me. I'm much calmer, hair growth is very slow and I love the familiar ache in my breasts. And of course I love the addition of boobs.
Yes when the thoughts are bad and running hot , its very mentally exhausting, am going to bed with buzz, dreaming about buzz and waking up with it,
Yes the thoughts are taking huge chunks of my life away, I cannot watch or concentrate on a film or much, I am just not present in the situation, the only exception too this is work or when involved in a hard physical hobby,
For me Julie, You hit the nail on the head with the statement above. I have a new barn that can hold 6+ cars and a two post lift. I have always been a greasy fingered mech, and now I'm retired and can work all my treasures without crawling around on the ground or rolling on a creeper.
I still wear girl shorts everyday and sometimes a bra if I have a dark color Tee shirt. But I am fully engrossed in doing what I love to do, so what I am wearing is immaterial. The feelings of femininity become stronger when I dont have anything to occupy my hands and mind.
Thanks
Bobbi