[Dianna1395]

If it's a crisis everywhere around you, your masculine side is called forth constantly to solve the crises. It's pretty much impossible to concentrate on your feminine side. Should you do anyway, it's a very dangerous form of escapism that will blow off in your face sooner or later.
Your current plans sound soundly to me. You know they are, just do it.  To get some peace and time for yourself to contemplate your needs and options.
If you choose to play it safe and stay on the familiar side of the fence, good for you (and I mean it!!) If you have to move on, depending on your environment and your self-mastery, you could find happiness even if you won't ever pass. I believe if you really feel like a woman and give her your all, are honest, dedicated and  persevering, people will realise you are not playing games with them and yourself and will eventually come to accept you whatever you are. At least that's what I'm telling myself to not go bonkers with my height and that I will never... ever... you know....
CREDO!

Thank you, Oki.
For feeling better about your height, I'd suggest you look at the Femulate blog...  Stana has a list of "Females of Height" IIRC how she terms it.
;-)
There are plenty of tall women...
And plenty who look like dwarves (Gimli).
But not like me.  ;-)

I'm just at the end of my rope, I got a call from my mother last night, hysterical, because she found something relating to her car accident injuries...   She's in Jersey, I'm in Boston, she's in tears on the phone, can't see, going blind... Taking care of these two here has always accounted for 100% of the income. I spend less, we're still broke. I spend more, we make it anyway...  WTF?

Parasites, I'm thinking...
And if I keep underperforming at work, I won't have to worry about the job any more...  :-P

Anyway, thanks for your thoughts.  :-)

-Dianna