[Superb]

Thats great that you have been to a therapist and you know where you are. If you have no desire to dress of to feminize then grow your breasts until you are happy with there size, enjoy them and then go about doing your boy things until you feel the urge to work the boobs. You dont have to go to DD's. Give them a massage once in a while and find a size your comfortable with.
Then you can enjoy both parts of your life. and keep Mr Happy Happy.
Bobbi

Haha that would be delightful, I'm just curious how much of a reality that can be being married. I feel you can only play the idk why i growing boobs card for so long before concern becomes suspicion. Being a woman is not something I identify with at all not even close but having breasts has become what feels a part of me that's missing physically. But the fear of stares and glares and such worry me and being insecure as it is it doesn't help. Any insight in how to quit caring

In the beginning I had the "what am I doing " thoughts.  But now that I've had some good growth my thought process is like yours.   They feel like the part that has been missing my entire life.  I'm currently  a large 38b and would like to be more like a c/d with more fullness on the sides.  I really love that feeling of waking up in the morning, reaching for the alarm and feeling my boob hitting the inside of my bicept.