07-10-2017, 04:31 PM
Like others, my wife decided it was time to have another chat. We were on our way to another town to pick up a batch of estrogen, i was in Jannet mode.
I was asked how long is this going to go on, you cannot keep switching about and playing him or Jannet. You need to choose one or the other, its two confusing for the family.
( keep in mind i go out to two support groups, and not every week, the kids are both grown up although still living at home, they see me as Jannet maybe once or twice every few months )
She then proceeds to tell me if I choose Jannet then i have to be prepared for the consequences.
I asked, so you would rather us be apart, for you to be on your own and me to be on my own ?
Yes, she said. I do not want Jannet in my bed, or to be apart of my life, I would sooner be alone.
Needlessly to say, the conversation put a damper on the whole evening.
Later on, when comming home after dropping into Costco, she informes me that no matter how well i think I pass, she sees people giving me a double take, ( its not that I have not noticed this occasionally too, its hard to blend in if your almost 6ft )
She lets me know she doesnt understand why I am this way, Its obvious i am a guy, no matter where I go i just look like a guy dressed up.
She wants to know, am I not just as happy just being Him? Why do I put myself through this.
Although she says she is supportive and understands, its obvious from the questions she asks
she really has no idea.
My head is not in a good place right now.
I was asked how long is this going to go on, you cannot keep switching about and playing him or Jannet. You need to choose one or the other, its two confusing for the family.
( keep in mind i go out to two support groups, and not every week, the kids are both grown up although still living at home, they see me as Jannet maybe once or twice every few months )
She then proceeds to tell me if I choose Jannet then i have to be prepared for the consequences.
I asked, so you would rather us be apart, for you to be on your own and me to be on my own ?
Yes, she said. I do not want Jannet in my bed, or to be apart of my life, I would sooner be alone.
Needlessly to say, the conversation put a damper on the whole evening.
Later on, when comming home after dropping into Costco, she informes me that no matter how well i think I pass, she sees people giving me a double take, ( its not that I have not noticed this occasionally too, its hard to blend in if your almost 6ft )
She lets me know she doesnt understand why I am this way, Its obvious i am a guy, no matter where I go i just look like a guy dressed up.
She wants to know, am I not just as happy just being Him? Why do I put myself through this.
Although she says she is supportive and understands, its obvious from the questions she asks
she really has no idea.
My head is not in a good place right now.